speechless

WHY
by Avril Lavigne
why,do you always do this to me?
why,couldnt you just see it thru me?
do you expect me to believe i was the only one to fall?
its not supposed to feel this way,
i need you i need you more each day
its not supposed to hurt this way.

i still love Avril.i mean her previous songs.

one week of school has passed just like that.every weekend i tell myself i got to do some work,which i did,but i know it was still the bare minimum.which will definitely kill me.gotta start studying,even if in others' perspective means mugging.AHH.i dont know if i can do what i set out to do because i dont love what i am doing now.

i am starting to like the ideas behind The English Teacher now. Teachers nowadays are merely giving the teenagers junks of General Paper, making us grow up into adults just like them.face this adult world,learning to varnish words to appear more polite,elegant what have you. we have to face problems we didnt use to.

i dont like this unrealistic world,but i have to live in it.i have to grow up and act like a 16 ++ year old.(except the times im with natasha and yiyao la.they dont usually care and we play along like kids that really have fun and have no troubles whatsoever about doing general paper homework and making us a bunch of "sturdy idiots").


unrealistic as it may seem, i now know why Peter Pan yearns to be young forever. If there are spaces available in neverland, i would like to enrol my family and i in it.

im not rational and daydreaming for now.and in 15 mins i have to go attend a lecture again.
i will wonder if there is someone out there who thinks like me.never wanting to be an adult.

posted by GRACECHIA @ 12:48 PM